With an open mind and an open heart, and being given the time for meditation and reflection through my recent experience, I’ve recently come to find out that things that I have let go; I need to let them go even more.
Another gift that I’ve found from my recent experience is that it GAVE me the time for reflection and meditation. I clearly needed it more than I was aware, it’s a constant reminder for me to make the time to reflect and meditate.
Letting go is not as easy as one might think. Letting go of a part of a relationship, yes part of a relationship or relationships, is challenging enough. To find out that you need to let more of a relationship or all of it go sucks. I’ve had to let parts of relationships go to maintain that relationship; sounds crazy right. The crazy part is finding out that all of it may have to be let go. It’s not the other persons fault, they didn’t change, I DID, and I AM CHANGING. I cannot expect others to change just because I’ve changed and continue to change. If I continue to hold on to what may have once been, I will no longer be.
I had one hell of a struggle when I realized that I had to let more of certain relationships go, and I still do at times. I feel disappointed in some but I know that’s not fair of me, I have to accept and appreciate each relationship for what it is, and I have to accept and appreciate each person for who they are and where they are in their lives. It’s hard to let go, sometimes it even hurts to let go, but I know I have to do it to continue my drug and alcohol addiction recovery. No one said it was going to be easy.
Just because I’ve let go of certain relationships or pieces of relationships, doesn’t mean that I’ve written them off completely. It allows me to embrace what’s really there and not be stuck on what I once thought was there, or hoped to be there. It helps me to maintain my relationship boundaries and helps each relationship to grow on a new, healthy level. Just like a tree has to be pruned to stay healthy, have better shape and have a more fruitful growth. I’m not chopping down all of the trees, (ok some trees have to be chopped), I’m eliminating unhealthy parts to allow healthy growth. It helps me to grow, it allows me to grow. I can’t grow if I don’t let go.
Don’t be afraid to do a little pruning, it may not feel good at first but once you begin, you’ll notice that things will begin to blossom, new branches will grow, as odd as it sounds, relationships may begin to grow. And not just your relationships that you have with others, the relationship that you have with yourself. Don’t’ forget to prune your own tree. Let go and grow.
The Reward Is In The Journey,
Stay Strong, Great Choices,